Oh FashionVictim, I am so sorry for your loss. Gwendolyn was such a beautiful girl.
I don't know what to say except I'm with you on this... I had to put my beloved Liza to sleep on February 15. She was 12 1/2 years old and her back legs gave out. She was in so much pain. It's been hard not having her here, hurts my heart. We may be able to get used to it, but we never get over it.
Hugs and love to you, sweetie.