Dear Mr. Floro:
All kidding aside and in all earnesty, a psychiatrist as well as a
behavioral analyst I work for have given an "unofficial dual diagnosis"
for you from the symptoms and summary I gave them regarding you.
They said you appear to have SAD (Schizoaffective Disorder) and
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
Medication and talk therapy would help you immensely.
The first step toward recovery is in picking up the phone and
getting yourself an appointment with a mental health professional.
I sincerely hope you take that first step sir.