does anyone here watch intervention? they do that tough love stuff on there. and the person always goes. i don't know what their success rates are but a lot of people do relapse, i think it's pretty normal to do that. just gotta keep trying to get better or die i suppose. it's a tough fight. i don't judge as i have addictions myself. namely cigarettes and pain meds when i get them, which isn't often but i'll get like 100 tylenol 3 for migraines and they will be gone in less than 2 weeks. plus when i was in the hospital, i could have morphine every 2 hours and i asked for it whether i was in pain or not. i just liked to be out of it. i can totally understand how someone can get addicted to heroin and i will NEVER try it. that would be the end of me. i'd be rolled up in a rug somewhere injecting morphine with puddle water.
honestly i love the way opiods make me feel. no anxiety no worries, i am not working or in school right now so i could just sit around chain smoke, pop pills and play cubis for hours with breaking bad playing in the background. oh how easy it could be to become 'useless'. the only reason why i don't try to get more drugs is because i don't want my doctor or other doctors to think i'm a drug seeker, and i'm too chicken shit to buy them on the streets and refuse to pay the outrageous prices, and mostly i don't want to be a full blown addict. so i'm kind of an intermittent addict. i get my t3 prescription every 3 months and for two weeks out of those 3 months i am high.
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