As usual, you are all correct. And I thank you for the concern and well wishes.
I went to the surgeon today. I am fairly certain he will be VERY happy to see me go, once this is all said and done. He wasn't super impressed w/the pulling of the stitches...he even said 'that's not so bad'. So, I guess that made me feel semi better. He did a little patch work and put a weird bandage on part of it and sent me on my way. Told me to knock it off, whatever I was doing---mentally and physically. Because I am obviously just a complete mental case at this point and he knows it. The whole nausea/vomiting thing is basically all in my head. It only comes up when I am upset/crying/worried/anxious about things and BOOM--the puking starts. Otherwise, fine (with the exception of last Friday night--that was out of NO WHERE and right after surgery). I am allowing myself to get upset about the dumbest shit and just hurting myself as a result. I am completely at fault for that.
However, I failed to mention that my husband is going to NYC this week (we live 4-5 hrs away from NYC and he cannot just fly home for me) and my In Laws, work full time. They were very helpful the first few days, but then once every settles down, everyone seems to scatter--everyone. I cannot make people take time off from work to help me out---they are just not willing to do that. I've talked about this previously......
And as far as my family goes, everyone lives 2 hrs away. And my two brothers, who were so supportive of me, have not called me...texted me...emailed me....nothing. NOT ONCE since my surgery. Nice huh? Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside!
So, I am doing very little and trying to just go with the flow of it all.
AND, I am having my very first glass of vodka in over 3 wk's. A very fine one too--Espresso Vodka. REALLY GOOD. This helps too. Won't lie.
But appreciate everyone's input and just listening, and even kicking my ass. I need it.