Hello mother fucker! when you ask a question read also the answer instead of asking another question on an answer who already contain the answer of your next question!
Agree with you about the hair thing too. Although, I'll tell you, others prefer my hair longer as opposed to me... I don't mind it short, especially in summer in Texas! I have friends who will call me if I'm going to the salon to say "you're only getting a trim, riiiiight?" and it irritates the shit out of me!
I don't believe the thinning hair thing happens to everyone. My hair isn't one whit thinner and neither is my mother's.
FUCK YOU AND GIVE ME MY GODDAMN VENTI TWO PUMP LIGHT WHIP MOCHA YOU COCKSUCKING WHORE BEFORE I PUNCH YOU IN THE MOUTH. I just get unpleasant in my car. - Deej
Healthy is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.
Mine isn't thinning either. Nor my Mothers. If it does I will be joining Hairclub for Men.
I didn't start out to collect diamonds, but somehow they just kept piling up.-Mae West
Yeah I lose a headfull everytime I wash it and it is just not going away. It's like a damn horse's mane.
I am going to come and burn the fucking house down... but you will blow me first."
Just wanted to say I hope you're doing okay! That sounds like an awful illness.
Coconut oil, and keep your hair in a low braid, especially when sleeping.
"Cake is the language of love" - Dylan Moran
Hi! Thank you for all the replies!! Sorry I have been MIA. But things are worse than I thought. (Go Figure, just like my last long term absence.)
About the hair....I ended up having to cut it to just below my shoulders. OMG. It was part giving up/part not knowing what else to do since I tried EVERY SINGLE IDEA. At last I just started crying and said "fuck it" and grabbed the scissors.
But after going to the doctors, I realized it really probably won't matter.
The last 4 or 5 months things have been going down hill, FAST. Mostly Chick problems that have NEVER happened to me before. I was always lucky because things were always on time, not a pain in the ass, and just normal. Then there was pain...not bad, just annoying and different. I ignored it. Then I started feeling like shit. As in I didn't want to do ANYTHING. Getting out of bed was the biggest pain in the ass. The bare minimum was done. If that. But I'm a single mom to 3 kids. I HAVE to get up. Eventually I just had to see my doctor because this just wasn't normal. AT ALL. I live in a hick town. Tiny. Old fashion. I told my doctor everything. He gave me a referral to the local Gyno. I knew, the minute I encountered him, he was an old fashioned ass. But I had to go with what was available. But I did have my moments of anger with him. I hate condescending people.
I asked him about Cancer. As in, can you do any simple tests to rule anything out. His response, no lie: " Pffft, You're so young! People your age do not get Cancer!!" (I'm 37) THIS is AFTER I told him my maternal Grandmother died at 36 from Ovarian Cancer. So I said: But obviously people younger than 50 or per-menopausal get Cancer, correct?" Him: Well, sure, but it's rare." Me: But it DOES happen. So why not check out more than what you're doing even more so since it runs in my family."
So he sends me for an Ultrasound(Which my other doctor did a month prior). I had one done about 6 months ago when they were figuring out what my problem was(Gall Bladder, had it removed) That one showed my Uterus at 6cm. The one a month prior, my Uterus was about 10 cm. The newest one, which was a month later it was about 17cm.
He says, well, you have an enlarged Uterus & told me the size. He said being my age, and after having kids, it happens. I asked him what the size it was the month prior. He said, " Wow, that's a good question. We should compare." (All I kept saying in my head was DUUUURRRRR)
So he told me the only way to figure things out is to do an exploratory laporoscopy. Which we did. (around October 8th) So glad we did. But proves 100% I need to travel for a better doctor. So not only do I have Endometriosous(sp) which has traveled to my surrounding organs, but the outside lining of my Uterus is very....Fucked. Then he had to tell me, (he showed me pictures.) "See these patches on the outside of your Uterus? In all my 35 years of being a doctor, I have NEVER seen them before. It's very interesting. I need to consult others about it before we have another appointment." He said the next step was an MRI. He said that I need to make a follow up appt in a week, then schedule the MRI. I said, "Why don't I schedule the MRI BEFORE a week, then we can discuss it at the appt." His response? "Wow. Youre a thinker!!" (Fucking douchebag)
Ok. Long story longer.......Looks like Cancer. Pathology test has to be done. But the way the MRI looked, it wasn't good. So more surgery. BUT. This FUCK WAD DOESN'T want to do it right away. He thinks a $2000 shot once a month will help. and then they can observe me.
I know it all sounds fucked, because it does to me. I can't grasp why My fucking chick parts don't get removed right away. I am done having kids. I have fucking black shit growing as we speak inside me. Fucking take it out!!! How can he say to wait???? He said he hasn't heard back from the other doctors about the alien patches on my parts. He wants to see what they say. I am fucking lost man. I always thought, Cancer, Go right back and take shit out. as soon as possible. Fucking Wait???
I've lost 12 pounds, I look like death, I'm so pissed. I KNOW I need to go to a different doctor. Even the nurse that was with me told me that. She said please, get a second opinion ASAP.
This all sounds like a fucking joke. Like someone is making shit up. But it proved to me that life is truly stranger than fiction.
The part that has made me pissed off, besides this dudes lack of fucking any idea in the world is that my fuck of a fiancee thought he was the best guy ever to watch our 4 year old while I was in the hospital. I got home, not even an hour later he left. I haven't seen him since. Or heard a peep out of him. Oh wait....I did get a call to say he filed for custody because if I die, what would happen to our kid. It makes me laugh in an insane way because WTF. I have had some shitty things happen. I NEVER complained or said "Oh why oh why me?" Because I knew Karma was coming at me. I accepted it. I deserved it. I knew it would get me some day. But it was always one or two things at a time. I could deal with it.
Now it's like everything at once. I can only think that Karma is now taking into account my past lives or something because seriously. WHAT THE FUCK.
I know I have shitty insurance, but seriously. I figured I'd luck out on a good doctor.
Anyway.....Sorry for the long confusing rant. I thought I'd let everyone know what was happening, or what I know at the moment. Seriously though. What fucking doctor acts like this???? I wish I was exaggerating. I actually left things out. Because re-hashing all of it, just really fucking makes me want to punch something.
Before you ask, no. I haven't called a new doctor yet. I know, I know, I'm a dumbass fucking idiot. But I'm so sick of all of this. I'm so fucking.....just I don't know. just exhausted.
Sorry again. Please don't bash me for being a dumbass, I already know.
Anyway, thanks for the ideas!
~Madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little push.
I hope everything turns out better for you ,I am truly sorry that you could possibly have cancer , hopefully the test will come back either no cancer or very early stages or something very treatable , and for the love of god see if you can get a better doctor , see what other ones are available in your insurance coverage area
And I understand being exhausted from it all , the amount of doctors I have seen with my back problems has turned me off from doctors for years - and nothing you could have done in life would equal anyone getting cancer - Cancer sucks ass and it indiscriminate and normally doesn't give a shit about karma
Take a day or two to process the information and then on Monday call an OBGYN that not some dumb old fart who needs to be sent to the dirt farm - found some OBGYN in I think Upstate NY
gardenwitch, so much to deal with, i'm so sorry! you MUST go to someone else to get better treatment. your fiancee is an asshole but you really do need to do some family planning just in case something happens. you are in my prayers!
can't post pics because my computer's broken and i'm stupid
omg gardenwitch.. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I don't pray but I'm sending positive thoughts your way. Please feel free to rant in here as much as you need to, there is always someone here to listen. (((hugs from Australia)))
Alicia Silverstone: "I think that the film Clueless was very deep. I think it was deep in the way that it was very light. I think lightness has to come from a very deep place if it's true lightness."
So sorry gardenwitch!
Report that doctor. But find yourself a new one asap, some people are just thoroughly inept at their jobs, doctors are no exception.
Hope you find a new doc soon (priority!)
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