I'm 24 now and feel as though I have battling with my complexion since I was probably 12/13 years old. I don't know what is like to actually wake up with clear skin, don't feel comfortable swimming because my make up will come off and have been in an 8yr relationship where my partner has never actually seen my face without make up.
My skin completely effects every single aspect on my life. It's not vanity per se, but I check my skin constantly. It's oily and I've tried mattifying products. Its dry in places, I've tried rich moisturisers. I have tried drinking 2-3litres of water a day in an attempt to improve it but nothing seems to help. It doesn't get worse around the time of my period, its just totally hit and miss so can cause loads of stress in the run up to a big event.
On occasion I've called in sick with a "headache" because of my bad skin, stayed in from nights out and not gone out with friends for a couple of drinks after work because I dont have my makeup with me and feel like what I already have on would need a refresh before I could go out. I'm staying home with my family at the moment, and I even put concealor on to walk the 3 feet from my bedroom into the bathroom first thing in the morning in case my dad, mum or brother is in the hallway and catches me without makeup.
Even if my spots were improved, my skins itself is still bad. I have freckles which I had IPL laser treatment for once but which didn't help and my general pigmentation is pasty. I feel like my skin makes me look unhealthy and dehydrated even though I'm not.
I need SOMETHING... ANYTHING as my skins has now been affecting my lifestyle for over 10 years and is completely limiting the activities I can take part in. Even staying over on a girlie weekend with some friends where I was sharing a room with 2 other female friends caused my intense panic and a work bonding day that involved quad biking was impossible for me in case mud splattered my face.
To someone who hasn't experienced the devestating affects of bad skin I know this doesn't seem like a major issue, but it genuinely is. I look with absolute jealously at girls with lovely skin and just cannot comprehend what it must be like to wake up looking halfway decent.
I feel like I have tried every single skin treatment, face mask and medication and pill that the doctors are able to offer and have run out of ideas. Nothing seems to work for me, so no way I'm kind of looking for a miracle!
Is there anybody out there with the same issue, anybody in the same boat, or are there any 'miracle' treatments out there?