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Originally Posted by MoodyJenny86

I don't want you to think I'm attacking you because I'm not! So yeah, just wanted to tell you that outright so you don't think I'm bashing you...

But about your comment...

Having suffered from Anorexia myself, it's mainly about control...(Although I'm sure some people do it just for the vanity issues and just want to be as skinny as can be...and then there are those who DO show off how thin they are...)

But in my own personal experiences, loosing weight was in NO way about vanity as much as it was about control. Control was the main aspect of it...that and everything else in my life was spiraling out of control so I figured that food and loosing weight was something that was MINE and no one else's...

So yeah...the more weight I lost, the more satisfied I was...but then also at the same time the more weight I lost, the more miserable I became...because I was just going through such a personal hell at that time...

The ironic thing is that when I was going through anorexia I did NOT show off one inch of skin. I was always covered thoroughly and most of the time with layers...(partly because I wanted to hide the weight loss, partly because I still thought I was this huge whale and wanted to hide my hideous 'fat' and partly because I was so cold all the time and was having trouble generating body heat...)

I mean some girls with anorexia probably want to show off their itty, bitty, stick figure bodies...but oh not me! I didn't want ANYONE seeing my body...and I made sure that no one did...because in a way, I was thinking that since this 'thing' this control that I have, is mine...I'm doing it for me and no one else...so therefore only I get to see my body...

Honestly, it was amazing how quickly my mind became warped and distorted after my ED took hold of me...it's a very scary thing...

So yeah anyways, that's just my 2 cents...

But as for Keira and the layers of clothing...maybe it was cold that particular day...?

Sorry I just had to say something about that, please don't take it the wrong way!!!

Understood completely!