[McJag]

I have had a good friend with serious depression. I noticed a few things: if your body chemistry is off,all the therapy in the world can't help. You can't talk yourself out of diabetes,either. Get the right balance of what you need. 10 years is long enough,without a good result. Give yourself some credit-job loss can lead to depression,with good reason.You have a valid reason to be depressed. Focus on getting yourself in order & getting back in the job market fast. A new job,with people who are nice, can make a major difference.So can a decent paycheck and benefits. I personally saw medicine take a grown man from unable to move out of his bed sobbing to a back to normal neat person again. I am not sure I could have understood this had I not actually seen it happen. We all went from worried sick to amazed. This took (for him) a few weeks. Not months or years. I think finding a good job that you really enjoy is the first key-force yourslf to get out there. One other thing-getting your mind off yourself a bit & helping others (there are always those worse off) is a depression killer-you get back more than you give. There are drug babies in hospitals that need volunteers to just rock them. There are dog shelters who need people to just walk them. By making yourself help others while you have this time off also gets you in contact with people you would never meet otherwise. All those people know other people,etc-you could easily find a new job or even a life's calling you didn't know you had. Use this time. Keep looking for help for yourself,yes. But use some of that time to help others in some way. You will not regret this.