My husband's grandpa was bipolar. He suffered with it for 5 years until he just couldn't take it anymore. He went into the bathroom and sat there for hours and told his wife that he was so tired and couldn't take it anymore. He had trouble sleeping, eating, being happy and turning his mind/worries/anxiety off.
He went that night and checked himself into the "psych ward" at the hospital. He stayed there for 2 weeks and luckily his insurance covered it. He was diagnosed, given proper medication and therapy. It made his life tolerable.
My older brother also checked himself into the hospital last February. He didn't have a job or any income, they helped him fill out all the paper work so he could get inpatient care. He was really at rock bottom mentally.
Sometimes you just can't do it all on your own and need extensive help. There are resources out there for people like you. Try calling the hospital and explaining the situation with them and see where they can direct you for help. My friend is a nurse and she told me before that they actually spent a lot of time helping people find programs/insurance/resources so they could be hospitalized for mental health reasons. Call them ASAP.
Be strong and I'm proud that you are reaching out and looking for the help you need.
